My Baby Nephew's Visit!!!

My nephew visiting has been one of the most happiest moments for a looonnnggg time for my family! It was a rough year last year and I think he made this year that much better!!! :) He truly is a bundle of joy!!! And a blessing all at the same time!!! It's amazing what a lil baby can bring to a family... especially one that has been hurt and bruised! I am happy that my nephew Dayton could come and make our lives a little happier! He's so special, if he only knew! :)

Ima miss him & my brother oooo sooo much!!!! : It's so hard to say good-bye not knowing when you'll get to see them again!

Awww my lil nephew is getting so big! I can hardly believe it!! And what's so exciting is I finally get to meet him tomorrow at 6AM!!!! And I can't wait!!! Its sooooo exciting!!!! I hope he loves his Titi as much as his Titi loves him!!!! :)

Dog Walk

So last Saturday, I decided to join my co-worker Erin for her annual dog walk and take Sammy with! I invited Pitts and her parents dog so she brought Missy (the Beagle). It was a super nice day for this! A little windy but it felt good with the sun beaming on ya! :) So below are the pictures from the walk...

Moving, Moving, Moving

Between Tuesday packing and Wednesday moving, I am still quite tired and I am not quite done yet!!!! : Ish! But everything has gone smoothly so far! That is the good thing! Thanks to my brother Joe helping out! It was nice that he is in town and was able to help me, I really needed that! I will be happy once it is all done and over with!!! Everything big is moved to my storage but I still have to pack the kitchen stuff and bathroom stuff! And clean up and it will be done! Thank goodness I will have till next Thursday and I gave myself plenty of time! :) But anyway! That is the fun going on this week!! lol Real fun huh?!?!

Tax Season is Over!!!!

So the long dreadful tax season has finally come to an end and I am very happy!!! :) This has been one of the longest ones yet!!! This was my fourth tax season and as the years go by and I gain more responsibility I am also required to be here a whole lot more during tax season!!! So it was good and bad! I am just happy to finally get my weekends back and not be stressed!!!

So to end a busy season I had a 3 day weekend! And I started it off by heading up to Duluth on Friday with Jevon and we planned to stay the night in Canal Park and come back down Saturday! That was soooo much fun to just get away! It was definately needed! And since Jevon has never been to Canal Park or Duluth it was definately fun!!!! :) Now I can't wait to go back and enjoy a longer weekend there!!! :)

Here are some pics!

This was turning the mountain into Duluth!

The view from our room!

In Canal Park!

The lift bridge at night!!! So pretty!


Driving home!

Hah! & this is what I do while he drives! hah!

So I said my good-byes... :(

Last night was kind of rough!!!! I went home to my parents house to find all of my family there and more to say bye to my grandma! This by far has been the hardest thing to deal with it... I am going to miss her like crazy and home just will never bee the same! I can't understand what life is going to be like without her around! Its been routine for 9 straight years and it will definately be different!

When I finally was ready to leave after sitting there until 9 dreading the thought that I really had to say good-bye this time, it was nothing but tears! The second I stepped over to here I started crying and so did she! And that hurt more! I didn't want to leave her but I had too... and my heart just sunk looking at her and telling her how much I am going to miss her! She really is my heart! That lady means the world to me and couldn't have asked god to send a better grandmother than her! Nor a stronger one! I've yet to meet someone so strong and able to keep moving! She truly amazes me!!!!

This has been hard but I said good-bye... I will make it an effort to go visit her often and see that beautiful smiling face!

But I can't get over that she is really leaving! :( Sorry to repeat myself but its hard! I literally cried all the way home! It was tough to drive with tears making my vision blurry but I managed! I miss her already and she hasn't officially left the house yet!


Well thats it for now... Good-bye to my Wela and I will see her soon!!!

On a good note...

So on a way happier note, the best excitement received this past 6 months was the birth of my beautiful little nephew Dayton!!!! I am sooo excited for when I will finally get to see him in person, since Hawaii is a ways away! And quite expensive to visit! But Nelson will be here with his family at the end of May! And I couldn't be more excited!!! So here are pics of my lil guy!!

This is when he was born!

His first day home!!

He was getting a little bit bigger! He was born premie!


This is the day he was with Uncle Joe!



He's too cute!!
My big boy!!!

Starting blog... it's kind of a novel!

So let me start out by saying my inspiration for doing this blog is my buddy Kirstin! I always wanted to but never have... and I do love to write out feelings or things going on in my world... hence the reason I own a journal that I do write in! But even though Kirstin is my inspiration for writing this we obviously have two completely different blogs, mines random and hers has a meaning! :)

Anyway, I will start with big stuff recently... Obviously if you are reading this you know me so I will not talk about how I grew up and blah blah blah! Here we go:

2008 was one of the worst years of my life ever!! I couldn't have prepared myself for all the things that came crashing at me last year!!! From getting in an accident in May to dealing with my uncle dying from Cancer and that being the first person I've known to have that and to see how it is, is just horrible and I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy it hurts to think that he had to suffer the way he did! On top of the emotional stress dealing with a family that was crumbling before my eyes was the next hardest thing to go through! A lady came in and tore apart my family at the drop of a dime and it seems the only ones effected by it were us! And till this day it still crosses my mind on a regular basis! And the pain is finally going away slowly but surely... and to top that one off really nice I got a another car... and a month later as if the year wasn't going bad enough already, I got into yet another car accident!!!! It truly was a trying and testing year... but I can say I am glad 08 is over and 09 did start off on a better foot.

Whether 09 stood on that foot for a long time I am not quite sure, see the year started with me getting my old car back because the man I sold it to was a co-worker and he fixes cars and I was able to buy the car back! So that was exciting! But as the month goes by things start to change... J gets a call from his family to find out his father is very very ill and things could be bad! That was a time that was hard on him and after the horrible year I had before, it was my time to step up and be there for him! After about a month, it was a week before Valentines day weekend, and Je'von gets the call that his father passed... it was heart breaking! I couldn't help but cry for a few days because I can't imagine the pain of losing my father. And regardless of how close you are there is still a connection there and it was very hard! But he has made it through it ok, and I know it certainly has effected him in many ways and he still thinks about it (rightfully so) it's only been a lil over a month... but I think he has been amazing and doing so well! I love him to pieces!!!

So this year has to bring some hurt to my world as well and, here it is... my current struggle and something that has since occupied my mind is the wellness of my grandmother and her soon move away from me! :-( I can not describe how much it hurt inside to hear that she had to go to the hospital again 2 weeks ago and that they had to keep her over night and that the end result was the fact that she had a minor stroke! :_( And after that being said I can't explain how much it breaks my heart to know that she won't be staying and living here anymore with my parents! Every Sunday when I go to the house... she won't be there! When I call and no one is answering it's not because she's on the other line! And just all the stupid things you get use to seeing and hearing just won't be there anymore and I can't get over it!

With that said, of all people I am happy to know that she will be with my Tia who will take amazing care of her just as my mom has but she just lives soo far for just a day trip! I am really going to miss my grandma come April 1st or so and she will be living in Chicago! I just don't know how it's going to be! :_( She's been such a significant part of our family for 9 years that being without her is hard to imagine! It overwhelms me in so many ways and completely consumes my thoughts!!! And in many ways has caused me to be very distant to one that I love so dearly because talking about it is the hardest thing for me to do without breaking down! And I keep trying to stay strong but tears keep welling up and my vision gets blurry, then my face gets warm, and a headache comes along and before you know it I am full fledged crying again and its so hard to face! And this here is that wonderful lady! She is true inspiration of someone who is sooo strong and loving and would do anything to help you! She is my Wela!

For now this is how I will end... and I am sure I will talk about this wonderful lady again since she has completely consumed my thoughts! But its getting late and tax season is calling for me in the morning! ttyl